November - 2010
Monday, November 8, 2010
9:41 AM It is in my heart to write in my journal. It has been a very busy time for me, as I have a full-time job, am researching and developing the website, and approaching each project with a heart of service, giving my all to Jesus. I have come short of "giving my all" in many instances, allowing myself indulgence in ungodly things. I have not given up. I have renewed my strength in each case, and set my heart to seek God. I don't ever want to quit, or to lay down in defeat. It is not of God's will that I surrender to any except Him.
Even if I do fall, time and time again, I will not be beaten. I know that my God is with me, to correct me and to help me improve my efforts and understanding. I ask Jesus to cleanse me with His blood, and to keep me. Sometimes I find it necessary to ask God to protect me from myself, as I have had times of seemingly "self-destruct" behavior. Without being aware at the time, I have discovered that I have done something that would set me up for failure. This thing ought not to be so, but can be seen as common, if we know how to identify it. God has given me this sight, to see and understand. He sustains me, even still.
I want to continue always with a solid onward walk, as the Lord proves me and reminds me that it is not of my strength, or of my own strength, but by Him alone that I go where I go and do what I do. Not I, but God in me.
