Wednesday, May 21, 2009
10:45 AM
Dear Mom:
I tried to write a letter last week, but the words keep on coming out all jumbled up. Frances won't take my calls at all. it's all I can do to hope YOU haven't turned your back on me.
Mom, don't write back to me with even a hint of an excuse on her behalf because she knows she'd ger her money for the calls. I know you could have written to me by now and I hope you plan to.
I'm only going to say this one time, and after that you'll have to call down here if you want to know more. My lawyer said that I am fighting against 5-10 years state prison for my charges. After that, George V. wants me to face Ohio charges for bank fraud.
Mother, even right now, with my heart held snugly in the warm hands of my caring Father, Jesus Christ, I am not sorry about George V. No excuses. I deserve what I got and so does he. I will say I am guilty and I'll TAKE WHAT THEY GIVE ME... WITH NO REGRETS!
I am free of ALL bondage of sin. I am in good care here and will not be in any hurry to get out. God is with me. I ask you this, Mom. Please do not discuss me with ANYONE at all. NOBODY!!! If you do, Mom, I will not continue to write.
Next, the entire Ruthie story was all deliberate lies and by now you know it. I have my reasons for the whole farce. I never stopped loving her. God is my witness, I likely never will.
I want to marry her one day. I've decided for certain that it's her, or nobody. If I never marry, it will be okay. If I do marry, it will be with her. God has allowed me that one personal choice... I've made it.
Now, I have included my charges in this letter. If you can't guarantee they will remain TOP SECRET, burn them out back. I will be home, and with my freedom before Christmas this year, 2009. Do not worry... God is with me. I am free of ALL drugs and crime. I will be a suitable husband for Ruthie, and father for Eli, her son. It's still her choice, when the time comes, if she'll still have me.
This is likely the only way my life could have improved enough and fast enough to equal Ruthie's recovery. My highest priority is God and His ministry. Nothing else will be more important. I've already began to preach and sing here, so it's NOT a pipe dream. I love you, and I'll see you soon.
P.S. When you talk to Ruthie, please tell her I love her and I will make good my promise... this year.
Love,
Neil
