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Baby Steps
By G. Neil Armstrong
For exactly six months I was in the anointing of God, writing by divine inspiration. This was literally continual. Sometimes I woke in the middle of the night, grab a pencil and write. Was it a dream? I would write it. Was it a prayer? I would write it and I’d engraft that prayer into my daily walk. It was a daily walk. Certainly, there aren’t many times that we can say that we did have a continual walk with God. Can you? Do you think I am boasting? Again, have you ever tried it? There cannot be a boast for a person who does walk daily, and continually with God, for any length of time.
This is no boast, my friend. This is good news! I am, by nature, of an analytical mind. I did understand the entire painful, yet utopian experience. What a transition it was! I have experienced different levels of this, and each is new. It feels like a deeper walk with God, and I could feel how close I could have become to being proud. I have even had physical issues that relate directly with pride. These are all documented in “real-time” detail. They are somewhat like a “play-by-play” of how I came to a fall, directly resulting from pride. These are even sometimes a bit graphic. Soon, you will be able to access these writings at Journey Through The Bible.
I remember being arrested on May 12, 2009 at 9:17am. I was typing in Best Buy on my navigator and was not driving steady. I was “high” from marijuana, and several hours before I was smoking crack-cocaine in a motel room all by myself. You see, I was on my way back to Florida.
It was my second trip in a matter of a week or two. I had no trouble on the first trip, even though I had sown only destruction. I was smoking crack-cocaine constantly for two days, while I visited with family. I was drinking and smoking marijuana. I started liking this girl. Yeah, she was a girl. She was a month or two short of 18 years old, and because I was high all the time, I allowed myself to believe that she’d like me when she turns 18. Does anyone know what is wrong with that?
There is a lot to say about both parties who take a liking to each other in such drastic circumstances. What’s that say about me? It doesn’t matter much if I was say, 50 and she was 30. For me to be attracted to her, under those conditions only, certainly suggests that I was looking only to physical. Not a single glimpse of a future did cross my thoughts. A 30-year-old woman is just coming into full adulthood. Just at that age, with no other circumstances added, she could not have the same interpretation of life as me, at the age of 50. Now, if you add just one circumstance that would be common. How about we add that she has a baby, and I am a criminal.
What is there to say about a 50-year-old criminal seeking after the heart of a 30-year-old woman, who has a baby? How about a 38-year-old man, and a 17-year-old girl, who still has a couple of months before she is 18? Before there is law, there is morality. Before there is morality, there is “love thy neighbor as thyself”. If I love that “neighbor” with a respect that I love myself, I would not want to bring a “spring chicken” into a “den of foxes”. She would have NO future with me. I would have NO future with her. As it stood, I had no good to expect from the crime I had committed.
That’s only one way to look at it. There is the idea that a criminal is running around committing crime, and wants to get close with an 18 year old girl. My sin was deep. My sin was continual, literally. I had dedicated my daily walk completely to mass destruction. Surely there are far worse things happening in the world than my petty crimes, but the crime that I committed in my heart, and almost committed against that girl is far worse still, than anything I could do on a massive level. This is a person who does have a promising future, and near future. Far be it from me to ever take the priceless possession of a positive future away from ANYONE. This is what I was doing! I was IN THE VALLEY OF DEATH. I have some writings on this, also. That was my first visit, only a week earlier. Then I went back… almost.
I spent 6 months in a jail that was deep in the woods of Kentucky. It was a blessing. I have written about this and many other things while I was in jail. There is much work to be done. I am working on putting these writings on the website that I linked earlier in this note. I am doing current work, also. I am doing the Journey Through The Bible series, and the Bible Challenges. I still write, as God inspires and will make these available on the website.
Saturday, December 26, 2009 2:27am
